April Travel Mania

Today is 1st April.......................... and thats the start of my travel mania month! more than half of my time for this month is on travelling.. today, aft work i will be leaving for jakarta, transit for few hours and will be landing in Kalimantan tomorrow morning.. its work related, im going to see some rocks sample and depositional environment for potential hydrocarbon accumulation. anyways.........that will kill 9 days in april, hope to be back in time for the kenduri arwah organized by the batch. will see how jakarta looks like, im kinda afraid if my company relocate me to jakarta office, i prefer if they place me in Peru, or colombia or canada.. haha! wishful thinking following weekend im going to be in saigon, its kinda weird that i choose saigon over energizer night race.. but again im done joining races.. im not that 2010 person i was i guess. and 3 weeks from now...... im going to kathmandu.. with transitting in bangkok for 2 days.. i literally took unpaid leave to accomodate my Nepal trip. i just have to do it you see.. coz death is always a mystery, we should live life to the fullest. indonesia, vietnam, thailand, and Nepal. thats my menu for april... and im loving it. crap i need to do presentation at 10 later and powerpoint shud be my bestfriend now! adieu! p/s: my timeout at perhentian was awesome. i had fun.. and my guardian angel was working hard keeping me awake at night...(-_-).. missing the fun in the sun now. and the best part? i rather swimming in the dark wavy ocean than taking a boat ride. another episode of silly phobia.

I don’t need anyone to tie my shoes for me

I still rmbr about a year ago, when I did my first project presentation, I spent hours for perfection.
I was struggling to impress, however I realize tht calculating oil reserves sometime is way easier than handling human in real form.

Saya ada mentor yang hobinya ponteng kerja dan teaching in anger that discourages me to ask further. Sedih la jugak.
Anyways, time presentation tu I was suprised to see he was trying to explain about my work …lil did I know that was just to evidence yang dia did his mentoring work.
Then I was thrown a hard technical question… I was flabbergasted.. with a hopeful eyes and finger tremor in horror, I glance at him seeking support.

Only to see him looking away to other direction.. a very intended ignorance.. so much of hiring orang mahal untuk ajar Malaysian. Taik la.

Not sure how others would handle this situation. I manage to answer the question in the end.. with a slight anger actually.
At times you may receive subtle or (unlucky) hard-rock indicator to tell you, that you are alone in this corporate world.

I was sad (I literally had pasta feast that evening calm myself).
But thanks to that I felt tad independent after that incident.

Lets not get used to have ppl bending down helping to tie your shoelace.
Lets just prefer to have people point it out, and you tie it yourself.

Coz you never know, sometime ppl might tie your shoelace as such to make you fall easier.

p/s: Speaking of which yesterday I presented to a lunch and learn session to the new recruits of the company, basically presenting to juniors about the industry. Im happy with the comfort I have in answering question.

p/s/s: cant wait to hit the island escapade this weekend.

When Plan B is booed!!

me and mr Z met during our university days...
we shared jokes, and food and drinks like siblings do.
also did a crazy bet like to get married when both of us turn 30 and single.

anyways, met him today, and he is chirpful as always..
he has found his love, he showed the picture, and their romantic getaway this weekend etc.

my heart melt... i guess im no masculine enough ;)
he is in love with another man.

lets sail this boat to the delusional sunset!!
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on the second note, im am happy today that i was waken up by a phone call from my friend in new york.. at 12hours time diff we can only communicate at odd hours. it was fun enough to start a day like that woudlnt it?

after attending a funeral yesterday, an eye opening one where i witness the process of kafan and all... its important to let the people you love be loved. and not to delay in returning kindness.
so me and my ny friend vowed to attend each other's wedding and funeral.

When plan B backfires, you can always rely on awesome friendship..
heck yeah!

of letting go

i did a sweet 10km run yesterday...i was running in anger too... stomping my feet along the way... it was hilly and all.. crossed the finishing line in 1hour 20minutes..not bad i shall say..
its amazing that after all these years there are still ppl tapping me to say hi during events.

fat girl running must have amazes them. :)

a friend..correction.. lots of friends were asking me if im ok post the break up...
but to be honest...

initially i was numb..
then i was sad...
after which i develop an anger... how things could have been difrent if, what ifs.. and if and if..
then i felt settled,
and i accepted..

after the cycled was over.. i felt better, and looking forward to know the hikmah behind these ordeal.. i trust there is a better plan for me, i believe there are reason god does this to me, im spared from future worst damage that i will not shared here.

im going to sms to him to say that i am forgiving him. and to wish him luck for his future.
to much suprise, i am fine and im forgiving. coz thats the best choice that i have, not necessarily the easiest option though... more often than not im spoilt by choices... but this time.. i choose to be happy than sad.

i shall just run the marathons and take the chance to love back my friends who are caring about me.. thats... the plan..

cant wait for april.